Applying faith, learning Scripture and practicing prayer have become regular pursuits. Yet there are moments when I question myself, God, life, the world and universe. Does that make me a disbeliever, wretch, or evil doer? Or does God comprehend when I ask, “why the suffering?”, “why the innocent?”. In my head, I understand; in my heart, I don’t.
No animal or child should suffer; no abuse or torture should exist; no being should hate or hurt another. But here is Earth and there is Heaven. In my head, I understand; in my heart, I don’t.
Christians believe the enemy is the catalyst for all things ugly, but redemption and salvation will save us from his deceit and destruction. Life down here is fleeting yet above it’s everlasting. Worldly existence is but a winding road to a better reality.
Atheists believe – well, okay, what do they believe? That this is it? There’s nothing more than what we see, hear, touch or feel? There are no deities? No God? No after-life paradise to aspire to?
Believing in God, or other deities, doesn’t make you more moral it’s said, and this I will agree with. Just because you go to Church doesn’t make you a true Christian or a good person. Doesn’t mean you’re going to be saved or go to heaven either. I know an atheist couple and these two are wonderful, caring and unselfish people who never do wrong. God bless them. <wink>
Not being an atheist, I can’t imagine how one deals with tragedy or sadness. Sure, I can read about it, exchange information with an atheist, but that doesn’t enable me to deal with misfortune from their standpoint. I can’t see myself enduring a crisis without maintaining the faith that “Someone” (the Good Lord above) will help me through it. I need to believe, want to believe, and will believe. Faith, blind as some may call it, is mine.
My blog isn’t about sharing in-depth philosophical musings or profound stories; it’s simply about communicating basic thoughts, observations and emotions at the time I’m in front of a keyboard. Others—those more professional or experienced, wiser or mature—can do this (and probably even get paid for it). Power to them.
For me, it’s purely about being me. And if I’m overly simple or unsophisticated, so be it. I wouldn’t change my life or me for anything.